I've been known to over-reach in my goals. But then again, come hell or high water, I usually accomplish them. So while it came as no surprise that my husband would totally hate my idea to run (at least) one lap of this year's Waskally Wrabbit, I was also hurt that I didn't get even a hint of support, never mind he said (in an off-handed way) earlier this weekend that my personally has imitated a crab since getting injured a year ago. And here I thought I was coming off as nicer recently, I honestly have been really trying to be nice all. the. time. But clearly he still thinks I'm cranky. :-(
I need a plan. I need something to strive for, a goal, something tangible since my efforts at home go unnoticed and unappreciated. I thought this idea would be somewhat supported since more than a few people have asked me what races I am planning to do this year. My now-standard answer of "None yet" gives surprised reactions, which tells me I'm not truly back to my old self. My goal is the Waskally Wrabbit.
My recent pleasant surprise that running trails didn't leave me a sobbing pain-ridden mess, has also given me the gumption to give'r at the trail race that started it all for me. I'm not hoping for a win, or even a top ten finish, but I do want to finish that race again.
So, while I heard my husband after his eye rolling, huffing and puffing, and exasperated "I just don't want you to undue the gains you've made," I'm still going to try for this. I'm still going to start training, albeit without any home support, and see how this goes. If I fall into my injury cycle again, where I'm needing three days to recover from a run, then yeah, okay, maybe I'll rethink that goal and maybe rethink how far I'm capable of going nowadays and about running a shorter trail race later in the summer. But to give up without even trying just isn't me.
This stupid knee OA isn't going anywhere. I've managed to learn how to deal with the cramps, with the night pains that wake me up nightly, the kneecap swelling, the pseudo-locking and the crunching noises. No KT tape technique, brace, pill or time off has really helped long term. I am coming to terms with the fact I will have to live with this. So, if I have to live with this, and this knee OA is coming along for the ride, then that means I'm getting back to ME, and that means getting back to the trails support or no support.
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